michael said..

it would help me if i started a blog, because i'm getting too worked up about college. And life in general. Seen as everything recently has been going wrong and the only person helping me out is Jack and even that isn't really enough. I'm stressing out over work and like, everything at home ok now i suppose but like, grandad is in hospital but he's okay.

and then awhile ago, apparently friends were slagging me off and like, saying that i only ever talk about myself, so i've sat back and not started any conversation about me, and listened, and all they do is talk about themselves.. so technically, everyone in every conversation talks about something they've done, or seen, or said. so fuck that. and now i'm being accused of seeing Jack too much when i only see him at college, the same as i see my friends, and when i ask to do things with them they never get back to me anyway, so fuck that also.

I keep having nosebleeds, headaches, and heart palpitations which is horrible and i dont know why.

hatin' life 2k11.

I D G A F *.

^ EXPLAINS MY MOOD AT THIS MOMENT IN TIME.

you are well hating me right about now.

..

wish i understood how you see things,

i wish i could get you to understand how i see things,

happyhappyhappy...

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nothing is ever simple, is it?

don't even get what's going on in your mind.

don't even understand how you can be like that.

don't even know why i make plans because,

well,

i won't go through with them because i know it pisses you off.

not gona make plans from now on.

can't describe how upset/annoyed i am right now.

proper feel like your doubting me and what i say.

.

i am not asking you again.

i cant be arsed.

and so i just deleted the post because i feel like i made a big deal out of that.. and so now im proving to myself that i say it doesnt matter alot because im deleting the post that said it did matter.. ok im just a pushover.